Back on my feet

Well I can honestly say I'm very proud of myself for conquering the tilt monster. It's something that's always been a problem for me and it'll come up in the future too, I'm sure. I just know that next time I'll have more experience dealing with it and will be more confident overcoming the downswings.

I logged around 2k hands today, raking in about $360 on the day, and getting back to my highpoint in terms of winnings in the full rings.

I ran extremely well, and have added three or four names to my buddy list at stars. One guy stacked me pf with A5o vs my kings, another pulled a very obvious slowplayed top set which ran into my turned straight, and I stacked a few of the tagfish in spots where they really should have folded as well. Juicy stuff.

Anyways, things are going well, and I'm confident again which is all that matters. Updates on their way.

Vid of the day is from feist. It may leave you 'mildly aroused' as jt from cardschat put it...

I hath conquered

Well I'm sorry about not updating in the last while, but as you can probably tell from my last post, I was on a pretty bad tilting session and just needed to clear my head of anything poker-related for a bit to get over it.

A few days ago I started putting in a lot more volume with 100nl. Unfortunately I ran into a pretty bad downswing, and that in turn lead to tilt. All that combined resulted in a pretty nasty downswing, and I saw myself go on monkey tilt for the first time since I was back 8-tabling $16 turbo STTs. I was NOT happy with myself; the downswing was a bummer, but me going on monkey tilt was something I really, really wasn't happy to see.

Long story short, I dropped about $700 from my bankroll and decided to take a break. Today was my first day back, and I promised myself not to monkey tilt. In terms of bb/100 I've had much worse swings, but when you look at it in terms of real money you really start to understand why I was freaking out so much. I rarely have a couple hundred in my bank account, and when I see my poker account drop that much in the span of a few days, it really hits me hard.

I used to tilt a lot and just take breaks to avoid improving my game and seeing what my leaks were, but I've decided to looked at my play in the most objective way possible. I've isolated my biggest leaks and already worked on them (successfully!) today. I booked a solid session, won a buyin and a half, and best of all I didn't tilt.

So the graph on the right's been updated again. Nasty stuff, but I'm dedicated to making a solid winrate out of 100nl; I know I can do it too since the play really isn't all that much better than 50nl. As a matter of fact, most of the money I lost during this streak was either from beats or coolers (again, see below), or was from me tilting as a result of those beats. I hardly got outplayed.

I'll be back on the tables tomorrow grinding it out so I'll update you guys on how that goes. Oh, on a side note I'm accumulating fpps like there's no tomorrow. I've already got another 17k saved up and really don't know what I want to spend them on. Any suggestions would be great :)

Gotta love the 80s and how back then it was cool to act like a bisexual. Seriously though, I've developed a strange addiction to Rod Stewart lately.

FFS downswing

Well as much as I'd like to blame this on a bad run, I'm honestly not playing anywhere near my normal game right now. I honestly don't know why but my mindset seems to have changed a lot lately - maybe it's because things in real life are a little screwed up right now in more ways than one.

Long story short, I lost around $400 or $500 yesterday, came back today refreshed and started winning, only to have a few coolers and more tilt bring me back down. I'm still well-rolled for 100nl, but I think I need a break right now, if only for a few days.

Sorry for the short post, but tbh I just don't feel like talking/thinking about poker right now. When I come back without the tilt I'm going to have a good look through my PT database and see if I can plug some of my leaks, some of which I already know about and know how to fix. Shouldn't be too much trouble.

On a side note, my iPod shuffle finally arrived (exactly one month after I ordered it), and it at least put a little bit of a smile on my face after all this losing business.

brb in like 3 days no music vid/graph update this time kbai